VANITY OF VANITIES! ALL IS VANITY!
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So, gentle reader(s), I've decidedly come to the conclusion that this blog is turning a corner. This is insane. I have 2 blogs (this one, and the other one that will probably receive copious copies from this one, as long as I maintain legitimate Catholic teaching), 2 facebooks, a xanga account, 2 myspaces, and one webpage that I maintain for work. I am living the dream, aren't I? I've made a habit of reading several books at once, much to the chagrin of my sanity and analytical skills. I'm also twitching my toes over the cusp of a new youth ministry position, so I'm quite sure that my own personal reading time will typically occur during 3:07 and 5:43 AM, or during plasma donations (doubtful, especially when I can access Crackle via teh intarwebz). Please excuse the sporadic and schizophrenic manner in which my words may baffle you today. Methinks I need to come up with a mission statement for this blog. I'm very mission driven, you know. If I'm not encountering Jesus Christ, then what the hell am I doing? NOTHING.
So, speaking of 3:07am, I purchased this:
One of the many things that my brain wouldn't shutup about was nifty topics for this blog. But then, of course, topics weren't enough. I had to come up with clever titles for them. Whilst I'm still in the process of squeezing the last bit of wit from my brain, gnaw on these ideas:
Why I don't wear pants to Mass
Contraceptive objector
TV
Primary fault
"Out-Catholic the Catholics"
Chivalry
Mission
Testimonies
From LifeTeen to Latin Mass
Temperaments/Temperance
Mornings
Making friends
Chapel Veils
Detachment
Dating vs. Courtship
"So, when did I actually start taking my faith seriously?"
Friendship first
Deus ex machina
Wallet Chains
Zombies
Why I don't hug guys
Vocations
Marriage
Zeal for souls
Pyramid of intimacy
Being right
Aquinas
HOMESCHOOL
My 5 patrons
The title of this blog (the actual web address)
What I need to read
Reason and intellect
Ask me why I'm Catholic
Singles books for good Catholic girls
Despair, despondency, and discouragement
Competition
Contemplation
Silence/Silent retreats
I'm not who I was/apathy toward everything that used to trip my trigger
Authentic femininity
Authentic masculinity
Favorite titles of Mary
My introversion
one-on-one vs groups
I go to mass to be elevated, not entertained
New evangelization
Catholic Memes
Lent
Self-denial
I've noticed that I really do a lot of blogging on my facebook page. However, since most of you aren't personal friends or acquaintances of mine, you'll never see my facebook page. Because I'm smack dab in the middle of interviewing 50 confirmation students and my brain is fried, I'm going to cheat for this first one, and copy-and-paste. I don't think that it has much to do with any of the afore mentioned topics. However, It was the moment that I realized that I am in love with Truth Himself. Also, I don't know if you can tell, but I hand-wrote this one. There is a substantial difference between the tone of my words that are written and those that are typed.
Ever been in love before? I have, or, at least what the ignorant, hormone-driven 17-year-old version of myself thought was "love." (I had absolutely no clue).
Try being in love with the God of the universe sometime. It's quite unsettling, but in a very peaceful way. Peace is key.
Journal entry during CYE Missionary Internship silent retreat 1-16-12:
Our Lord is really speaking to me through the book of Sirach today. I don't think I've ever read it entirely... I'm about half way through. I love the author's treatment of truth and Wisdom the most. It started off with a bang: Sirach 4:28- "Even to the death fight for truth, and the Lord your God will battle for you." This one reminded me of a few people I know and how I used to be: 23:15- "A man who has the habit of abusive language will never mature in character as long as he lives." POW! Lastly: 24:18-23, 26-27- "Come to me, all you that yearn for me, and be filled with my fruits; you will remember me as sweet er than honey, better to have than the honeycomb. He who eats of me will hunger still, he who drinks of me will thirst for more; he who obeys me will not be put to shame, he who serves me will never fail... the first man never finished comprehending wisdom, nor will the last succeed in fathoming her. For deeper than the sea are her thoughts' her counsels, than the great abyss."
This is an interesting prefigurement of Christ, who promises that we will never hunger or thirst again. Perhaps He meant we'll never hunger or thirst again for things we used to do, things that truly don't satisfy. The footnote suggests: "so pleasing is wisdom to man that, far from being satiated, he will always desire more." That is what love is...desiring constantly deepening intimacy with the Beloved. Human love can have a finiteness to it. There may come a point where we stop searching out the other person because we "know them well enough." True love never stops searching to learn more of the other. And, while in human relationships this seeking may be stunted by our finitude, it's the exact opposite with Christ. The closer we get to Him, the more we desire Him. The more we desire Him, the more we want to know Him. The more we want to know Him, the closer we get to Him. It is an infinite cycle because Christ is infinite; there is no end to the mystery of God. It's so simple yet so vast at the same time. The hunger that is never satiated can only be for Christ if it is pure and holy, not out of pride or intellectual pursuit. I want to fall in love with this person or that person; there is only so far I can go in my knowledge of said person. With Christ the knowledge is infinite, limitless, and knows no partiality. The deeper I fall, the more I know, but, ultimately, I understand that I know nothing, because the fraction of the 10% of my brain that I'm using to seek Him is a mere drop in the ocean of what there is to know, learn, comprehend, and love about the King of Kings, Wisdom and Truth Himself.
Bonfire, indeed.
St. Thomas Aquinas, ora pro nobis!
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